Painful

Yep, I am in pain. Grrr.

1. I pulled a muscle from gripping onto a poll on the bus which I had to stand for over an hour on.
2. I have a bruised side from it hitting off said poll.
3. I scolded my lip with pizza. There is a big, gross blister on it now.
4. I pulled a stomach muscle when I was standing up to get off the tube (don't ask).
5. I have blistered feet cause I chose to wear extra thin socks.
6. My knee is bruises from hitting it off virtually everything I have walked past over the past few days.

Today

I got up at 6.30am today so that I could go to the early biology lecture and thus have more free time later. I don't think I actually can feel tiredness anymore. It's strange.

So I spent an hour or so wandering about the university campus looking for some guy's office. I was going from building to building as they were passing me between each another. Ugh, I'm fed up asking questions today. That's all I've been doing. It made me feel like a complete idiot as well.

My knee hurts. I banged it on the subway and then had to stand with my head hitting off the door for the whole journey.

To top it all off, when I finally got in the bus (after a cancellation of the one I had the intention of catching) the guy sitting next to me told me to turn my music down. My only refuge from the sick harsh world was broken.

So to sum up: It was a shitty day in which I shed way too many tears.

Loosing the Plot

I get angry too much these days. I feel like people are annoying me constantly. I'm constantly wanting to be alone. The work at uni is getting on top of me also. I'm having to drop chemistry. It makes no sense what so ever. It was stupid to take it in the first place anyway. I only got a C last year and that was just a fluke.

The traveling is getting on top of me. It takes so much of my potential free time away from me. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against public transport. It does give me time to relax but at the same time I would much rather be relaxing at home.

I still haven't got my replacement bank card yet. Turns out that they hadn't even ordered it for me. Morons. Grrr. More people to be pissed off with. Just what I need!

The Crappness that is my Life

I have compiled a list of the shit stuff that haunts me each and every day. Enjoy!

1. I have internal bleeding and am too scared/stupid to go to a doctor about it. I get a lot of acid pain stomach aches and it just ruins my days.

2. University is stressful. I can't keep up with it. I barely have any free time at all these days.

3. I feel so dam lonely. I don't have friends, only acquaintances.

4. I have a bizarre lump on my spine. It hurts and seeps pus. Not good.

5. I have an inner ear infection and have been prescribed drugs that could leave me with permanent involuntary muscle movements.

6. I have no social life. I never go out.

7. I don't have any money. I still don't have my bank card.

8. I can't sleep enough anymore. University is depriving me of it.

That's all I can think of right now. Good day to you all.

Early

It's early. Well, not that early but the earliest that I've ever been online.

The family are all away out so I'm in the house myself. I decided that it would be be a good opportunity to spend some quality time with my beloved computer without anyone walking into the room every 5 minutes.

I feel depressed. I won't get into the reasons but it's a deep deep pain that I just cannot rid myself of. I don't want to talk to anyone. Well, not in real life anyway. I've been feeling like this a lot recently. It's so shit.

That's all I have to say. I'm going to go and get myself a second breakfast now.

Stuff

It's interesting that I didn't get any spam comments on my last post. Given up have you?

Anyway, I'm getting rather frustrated at the moment as I'm waiting on a letter containing a replacement bank card. There are so many things I need/want to buy but I just can't at the moment. I'm also waiting on a couple of things I ordered over the internet being delivered. I ordered them well over 3 weeks ago. It seems to be almost as bad as amazon.

So there are some obnoxious kids shouting and screaming in next door's back garden. I really want to tell them to shut the fuck up but I don't imagine it would go down well. They woke me up this morning with their fucking screaming. Brats. I hate their guts.

I keep forgetting that it's Saturday. The fact that I am having a three day weekend keeps slipping my mind. Not that it being Saturday today rather than Sunday actually means anything. I'd go out but I have no money. Well, I have £20 but that has to do me for an unknown amount of time until the bank of Scotland decide to get off their lazy butts and do what they're supposed to do.

My sister keeps on buying things and basically rubbing my face into the fact that she can spend her money. Bitch.

The kids have stopped screaming and shouting. That's good. Things are maybe looking up now.

OK

I have a little dare for all you idiots who keep posting spam comments. I want you all to post them here. C mon, you know you want to.

Sorry 'bout the recent lack of updates. I know I have said it many times before but I will try to mean it this time: I will be updating more frequently from now on.